Mama's Losin' It! Writing Prompt

2.) Share a favorite Christmas memory.

My favorite Christmas Memory from Christmas is the note that Santa leaves the kids every year.  The letter always addresses the kids and the good they have done and where they should try to work a little harder.  Santa is very understanding of how hard it is to be a kid and recognizes that they are trying. There is always a special note of thanks for the cookies, milk and reindeer food.

This particular note was telling the girls that even though Mom and Dad were no longer together that both of us love them very much.  It also let the girls know that they were kinda lucky because now they were getting a growing family to love them. 


The other favorite memory is making reindeer food and having the girls spread it.  Our reindeer food is safe we DO NOT put Glitter in the food.  We mix a little hot coco, plain oatmeal, and sprinkles in a bowl then divide it between the kids that are there to take home for Christmas Eve.  Christmas Eve we sprinkle the the food outside for the reindeer to eat while Santa is in the house.

Enjoying Everything

Since my last post that wasn't a writing prompt I have been off the computer for awhile.Had kind of a shitty month and a half :(

I went in for my mammogram I ended up needing a second one and will need to go back in 6 months so they can recheck.  I also had a MRI on my breast (it's just a precaution for people with BRCA) which was extraordinarily uncomfortable but came back clear so that's excellent news.  In between all that I ended up at the emergency room for horrible hip and leg pain which was later diagnosed as sciatica.  The sciatica so far has been horrible, I live every day in pain before this but this pain is weird and unbearable.  My house was also full of sick people.  My daughters got colds and sinus infections, I got strep and my husband got a cold and a sinus infection.  All while I was literally laid up could hardly move.  I have to say when the Lord wants you to slow down he definitely can stop you dead in your tracks.

I am finally back up to sitting and walking around a bit.  Trying to get back into the swing of life without over doing it.  I am so blessed because my mother-in-law helped so much getting my from school and me to doctor's appointments.  She definitely is a blessing.  My husband also rocked the house by cooking every night even when he was sick as all get out.   He picked up all the slack with the house.  I can only say I don't know what I would have done without the two of them.

I truly made a point to try and enjoy everything I could from my couch :(.  The weekend that the whole house was sick we had a movie marathon.  As the girls started feeling better they decorated the tree it was so cute because the tree was decorated just to about 4 ft the rest of the top was bare.  As I was able to stand in short amounts I helped and we got part of the top decorated.  WE as a family managed to make what could have been completely miserable enjoyable.  I am so proud of our family.

I am so slowly getting better but we are figuring out how to do things around me being laid up.  The Lord has his reasons for slowing us down and I really believe it's so that we can remember to enjoy everything.

With all of that being said I can't go with out saying how devastated I was with the Newtown shooting. I can't imagine how the families are dealing with all of this.  I pray for them a lot.  That Friday night my ex had our girls for the weekend.  I was so blessed that when I asked he had them call me just so I could hear there voices.  Then that very next day was when we celebrated my husbands birthday which happened to have been on Friday I was able to have the girls for a few hours.  It felt so good to have them just to see them.  I have to say Monday was terrifying because we live in CT and I just couldn't imagine them going back into school.   I was able to pray and remember that their school is rather secure it has a wonderful security guard which is new this school year.  I was ever so thankful for him.

Monday night my youngest daughter passed her belt test at karate something to enjoy. (here is a pictures of her when she started her journey)

She is now going to be a second degree brown belt.  It's the small things.

I am so very sorry for all that happened here in our little state but in the aftermath the amount of people coming out to show support for the families is amazing.  There are people building human walls to shield the families from negative things and show there support.


I unfortunately can't give credit to the photographer as I couldn't find their name listed.
This is just some of the good things that are being done for this small town.  There are funeral home directors volunteering there time as this town is so small that they only have one funeral home.  A man from California called the local coffee shop and paid for a day of coffee for anyone who came into that store.  America is coming together and trying to help this community heal.  It doesn't take away the horrible things that happened but does show that there is still love out there.  I will continue to pray that God will continue to wrap his arms around those effected and comfort them.

No I didn't see it coming, she was sly as can be. (she could be they but can't change the song)

From Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop  
5.) Take a line from a song you love and turn it into the title of your next blog post. Let the content follow.

Got an ex-old man and an ex-best girlfriend by Kristen Kelly

My ex-husband moved me out while I was the hospital and moved my ex-best girlfriend in.  I have to laugh every time I hear the song because I wouldn't have ever gotten where I am now with out all that funny business.  I was hurt at the time but now I see it as all of part of Gods plan.  I needed the help I got in the hospital. I probably wouldn't have left which was turning into being a bad situation without him having moving me out.  So I am blessed that all that happened, happened the way it did.

After coming out of the hospital (it was a mental health hospital)  I was enrolled into a out patient program DBT (dialectical behaviour therapy) to learn things that I didn't know things like how to cope with stress in healthy manner.  How to deal with life situations that seem to bury you.  How to stop doing the things I had been doing that were not healthy for me.  I learned a lot in this program and I truly feel that I was blessed to get to participate in it.  I learned that a lot about life is done by living in the moment, not living thinking about all the what if's in the world.  Things happen for a reason and this was one of them.

After getting out of the program I started to try new things, challenge myself to do things outside my comfort zone.

Yeah that's me coming down from walking across a rope course!!! I am still very proud of myself for that moment.  I am terrified of heights and I did it.  I keep trying to push myself to do my best at everything I do and to adventure outside of my comfort zone.  

The absolute best thing about all of this is that I became the mom that I am supposed to be, to my beautiful daughters. 

I am so blessed I reconnected with God and I met my husband.  He is the man that changed my mind about ever getting married again.

I am truly blessed. :)